I find it oddly liberating that I don’t even want a guy to look at me right now. My ex has burned me with harassing phone texts because we broke up and the fact that I didn’t see it coming bothers me so much that I want nothing to do with men.
I’m almost at the point of thinking that most people are nuts and it’s only a hand full of people I know that are normal-ish. Perhaps I am lucky in my life in that this is the first time I’ve come across this in relationships. Either lucky or naive I guess – maybe even “wrapped in cotton wool”, so to speak from people’s crazy side.
That’s the thing about being married young and for 10 years; I didn’t experience much of relationships, just a boyfriend here and there.
Should I be grateful for this new experience? I’ve learnt a lot of course but I’m already cynical, skeptical and not trusting to a point, will this push me to a new level of “you can’t touch this”?
I still maintain my humor at the moment so I’m going to take that as a good sign. For example: “Ha my ex called me “Jubba” lol nice reference to Star Wars dip shit, you couldn’t think of anything better?”….(also just so you know I’m not fat – I am AUS size 12) Boooyah!